Alexxis Marcia's Diary

Wednesday Oct. 27th                                            If you're wondering when life gets better Idk you tell me.... This is a question I have been asking myself for years, while I felt like I was working myself to death with no outcome, watching everyone get everything I wanted, when my mom died, but recently I got my answer, there isn't one. Life getting "better" isn't exactly what we expect. we hope one day to find a better job, find the person were meant to be with, lose weight, make more money, buy our dream home, or achieve our dream jobs. The problem is who the fuck knows when any of that will happen? my dream was to be an actor, as I worked, went to classes, auditioned constantly and watched others book their first roles I was left wondering when it would be my turn. It never seemed like the cards were in my favour. after SEVEN years of working back in September, I decided it was time to give up. Heartbroken, I deleted my profiles on casting sites,

  My thoughts on diets, food guilt, cheat days and loving your body. 8 pieces of advice I have gained on my weight loss journey. Link to My Youtube Channel-  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuDXHme_NQgthMe7fluFCTw  I am about 2 months into my current diet, this is my first time after years of crash diets and eating disorders I have tried just eating healthy,  balanced proper portions. I have had weekly cheat days with no restrictions, and if im craving during the week, I eat it. These last two months have been filled with plenty of food guilt, until last week when I realized this is the most successful I have ever been, I have lost 15 pounds and about 3" off my waist, My skin is glowing, and I feel more energized than ever. 1. I have went over my calories quite a few times. I have found as long as I am not eating just because im bored, going 100-200 over my daily limit hasn't hurt me. 2. Cheat days give me something to look forward too, and I don't count calories. 3. On t